well im sitting alone in an empty house, in the midle of a forest . totally alone, my mother, brother and stepfather are on a boat to sweden and isnt this fun. let me tell you something, not that anyone reads this. anyway a year ago in sa i prayed for silence prayed just to be alone for 1 miute and now im sitting here and you know what it sure as hell aint that fucking great. now i pray for noise just so that i dont have to be alone anymore inside ny head. in sa you would sit in your lounge or lye in bed and there would never be silence, god i miss it. im not drunk, but hell i aint sober, so wait that makes me tipsy, hee hee hee. in sa i wish for something more, now i wish for what i had. funny i never fully understood that saying: you never realize what you have and how much you lve it until its gone. well its gone and now i pray for 1 moment where there is no silence, no lonliness, no me inside my head. well that isnt a wish that will be answered soon. so now i say cheers. cheers to gods fucked up sense of humour and cheers to human nature.

cheers, see ya later.